heart vs mind

this is the single-most difficult thing in a persons life. everyone wonders how to get that perfect someone...and how to keep them. we spend our lives searching and when we do find someone who is 'compatible' we wonder if they truly are 'the one'. we change ourselves. we have our partners change themselves. and in the end it never works. and why is this, you ask? because we CHANGED. you should never have to necessarily change for anyone, unless of course, it's for yourself.
now i'm no expert on this sort of thing. and i'm certainly nowhere close to finding 'the one'. yes, i do have a boyfriend, and yes, i love him..but is that enough? in my mind i know he doesn't want the same things as me. he's headed down a one-way street. in my heart though, i still want him...need him. i guess this is what everyone goes through. what everyone feels. what everyone thinks.
when do you put the brakes on and stop? a relationship like this is either very toxic, or works out in the end. in cases such as mine, i think, the best thing to do is put your heart away and listen to your mind. but maybe, just maybe...your heart is right all along.

you're the only person who can decide how you feel in the end, don't forget that.

arizona baby!

im heading out to the wonderfully, beautiful arizona on tuesday! i can not tell you how excited i am, even though i go there just about every month.

i'm kind of  bummed im only staying a few days though. but at least i will be there for BOTH of my best friends bdays!!

see you when i return

mother's day!

so yesterday was mother's day. personally i don't believe in it. i think all mothers should be appreciated every day. the sacrifice so much but never ask for a thank you. unfortunately due to certain circumstances i was not able to see my mom, on what is 'supposed' to be the one day it's absolutely necessary. about one week ago she had to move from one year to two years. it was a very sudden decision and i don't know when i'll be able to see her next.

my whole point to this is, appreciate your mom. every day.
you won't regret it.

& happy mother's day